Canceled each appointment yesterday and for today. Nothing to do except for sports. I'm somehow relieved. I enjoy my weekend with sleeping in, coffee and granola for breakfast in bed and just hanging around in my appartment with doing stuff which has to be done. Sun through my windows wakes me up in the mornings.
I discovered a spot of mildew in one corner of the ceiling of my sleeping room. Uuuggghhh! I'm asking myself how it can grow when I do air my room each and every day for hours during the days no matter how cold it is. Removed it with chemicals yesterday. Hopefully it won't grow back.
J wants to come by next Tuesday. I'm not really looking forward to that. I can't say no. I'm asking myself for the thousands of time why I still have and hold contact with him. I don't want to have sex with him anymore, I don't want to go rock climbing with him, I don't want to go on a snow shoe tour with him... I won't miss him if I will never see him again. So, why am I still in contact with him???? I'm angry with myself on this, so fu... angry!!! Why, why, why...
Just one more week until I will be in New Jersey again.
10:03 - January 25, 2009
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