I'm broke. Well, what's new. All the bills came in like I mentioned before.
Good that my brother didn't want money as I wouldn't be able to send any right now. I need it for fuel to get to work and of course food.
Well, no food would be better right now as I still need to loose some weight.
It's still snowing but temperatures raised and it's a very wet kind of snow. It surely will begin raining soon. Good prospects for driving to work on Thursday or Wednesday.
The birds are very hungry right now. I have to fill up the bird feeders daily. Now there are all kinds of birds. Siskins, greenfinches, blue tits, great tits, willow tits, coal tits, (damn, I hate those american names for the german word "Meise", it sounds so vulgar, sexually), blackbirds, nuthatches, robin redbreasts, eurasian jays and some more I can't name yet. I have a reference book to look them up. I really love watching our little feathered friends.
The bat hasn't returned yet. Maybe it's in hibernation - finally.
During my free days I knitted the mittens for my friend. As I needed the wool I finally cleared my boxes of wool and placed them in their shelfs, which means there are only two more boxes to clear of stuff in my apartment. The room with wool still looks pretty messy as I didn't feel like cleaning and straightening it up at all. I'm such a lazy ass.
I knitted three pairs of mittens and a skirt. The skirt still needs the final sewing of the yarn. I hate those final works on knittings. I love knitting and crocheting and felting, but I hate sewing. I have all the patience of the world for knitting and undoing it again when it doesn't fit but I don't have the patience to sew. How's that?
I think a lot about relationships lately and how it comes that I don't have any. I feel very comfortable to be alone, do what I want and when I want without having to make any compromises. But I'm still wondering why I'm not able to love anyone that much that it lasts for life. After a while I hate everybody who lives with me or comes closer to me. There are persons I can stand a little longer. But none of my friendships lasted very long not to speak of my marriages (2, the first lasted 3 years the other one 7 years).
I guess my friend Petra knows me and she gives me room enough to escape that's why our friendship lasted for more than 6 years, I guess. She's the only one.
There are cycles in life. They last 3.5 or 7 years. Every 7th year (plus/minus a half year) something major changes. It occurs in nature too. Just look at the mast years in forrests (the years when there are more fruits and pollen are produced than normal). It's the so called seven year itch in marriages. If you look back you could see it too. I don't know why this happens but it always happens. Some couples overcome the changes, some fail. The younger generations mostly fail nowadays. Why do those cycles happen? And it seems that they occur more often than before.
12:37 pm - January 05, 2016
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