Still not psychological ok.
I don't want to see anyone and it is hell for me to go to work and act normal and do conversations and phone with clients.
The only thing I would like to do is go back to bed and never come back to the outside world again.
Maybe I should get a doctors appointment and go see a psychologist or do a psychotherapy again. I think I need professional help to get out of those deep wholes I have all the time.
Stefan emailed and gave his permission to post pics of Norway. Maybe I'll find the energy to post some this evening. I don't have them here on my computer at work.
Sunday is my last triathlon race this season. So it only makes 3 races this year. Not much for me as I raced 4 or 5 times the years before. Due to my calf injury I had to cancel the olympic distance in July, I would have made otherwise. I don't count running races into this, as these where just training races with kind of no importance but to see where I stand in my fitness level.
Weather is awesome. Perfect late summer days. Not too warm with blue skys. Days are making me feel the coming death of nature.
Emailed a bit with PT. He's encouring me a lot, but his words just make me more angry and a lot more sad. He don't feel and he don't see things as I do. Nobody sees and feels like I do. It would make no difference if I tell anyone what's inside me.
So until I get professional help, I'll try to act as normal as I can and try not to get furious and not to get crazy...
9:57 am - August 31, 2011
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