Nothing has changed since last night.
I'm like a wounded animal.
Left alone.
Did all the things I had to do.
I function.
But tears come up hourly.
Went to swim training this evening. It wasn't as crowded as usual. I was very thankful that I was able to swim without major buoys in the lane. 2900m today, half of it with paddles. So, I hope that I will have a good nights sleep. It doesn't feel like I will have much sleep. But I will pack up the rest of my stuff now. Disassemble the closet in the sleeping room is the last thing to do and pack up all my clothes. Then I'm pretty much done.
Oh, and my bed of course, but I'll wait with that until Thursday.
Haven't painted anything yet. I thought that if I have to pay rent still for this apartment I can take as much time for it as I want. There won't be anyone moving in before next 15th or so. So I will not hurry with that.
I pray for help.
I pray for a sign.
Silence and tears are the only thing I got until now.
Outside there's a childrens-party. They have lots of fun and laughter and loud music. Wished I could live my life as lighthearted as they do. But who knows, what's in their hearts.
8:52 pm - July 28, 2009
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