I'm going to make a housewarming-party on the 29th of August. If one of my dear readers happens to be in Munich at that time, you're heartily invited! And I mean it.
My day today began with tears. I had a real strange feeling and fear of dying and not having the chance to say goodbye to those people I love. But as you see. I'm all ok. But that fear of not being able to say goodbye to people and saying how much I love and appreciate them is a tragedy to me. I have no problem with dying. I'm ready when I have to go.
I went cycling then for more than 3 hours and while I did I bursted out in tears from time to time.
Called my friend Barbara and met PT in the evening for the gathering of the JW. I said nothing to anyone.
I'm speachless in front of people. Full of fear of not bringing out the right words or not saying things at the right moments. I'm too shy and afraid of people and their feelings.
I'm frustrated of that. Totally.
Now I feel lonely.
10:08 pm - July 19, 2009
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