Dear D.,
This one's going to be very difficult but I'll try, really!
My mother died of cancer when I was 19 and I once tried to commit suicide because a man I truly loved didn't want me anymore. It hurt so deeply in my heart, stomach and head to never see him again, to never touch him again and even never have something to do with him ever again. It took more than a year to get over that. And I sometimes even think of him now 15 years later.
People say that time will heal everything. Which is really true, but what can I do while it hurts so much while time does its work? I don't know it by now, but to stand the pain. It'll get better with each week that passes bye. Fill it with beautiful things.
Life is beautiful! You just have to see it, not just the pain in your heart.
Life consists not just out of the bad things but also the good and nice things. But you need the bad things to see the good ones even better and to enjoy them even more.
Death belongs to life as birth.
Love belongs to life as pain and hatred.
Good belongs to life as evil.
It is like Yin and Yang. Without the one side you will not have the other side.
Everything in life has a sense, even the painful ones. You will learn out of everything and most out of those which are painful. You'll come out of this more powerful and with more depth and more understanding as you have now.
Please, don't ever give up as I did, when I was in that situation.
And never ever ever ever give up hope, faith, courage and yourself!
You are a good and brave man with brain and a lot of inner depth, with so many talents and it would be such a waste if you'd ever throw away what you have.
Take care, D!
Love
R.
P.S. When would you have time? I'd pay for the flight... :-)
1:15 p.m. - 2008-10-01
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